Me Is No Good Friend

"I'm sort of lacking certainty," Another City, Another Sorry by The Answering Machine.

"Yes. Me is no good friend. Me stupid dumb-dumb. I is know that me have the best friends anyone could ask for, but me is no good. I is shad. Wuuu~"

Have you ever felt like above persona is portraying? I feel it all the time. And that saddens me. Makes me feel guilty, more than any healthy person should be feeling in "the best years of his life".

First of all, let me just say that I have fantastic friends. They keep me company, listen to whatever I have to say, laugh at my lame jokes, are able to discuss whatever issues that I come across, are very smart, helpful, respectful and funny, provide a shoulder for me to cry on, etc. Suffice to say, they're the best.

However, my treatment of them leaves much to be desired. I forget to say thank you sometimes. I don't say sorry enough. I make mean jokes (which I later regret), I don't invite them to have meals with me whenever I feel like eating, I make a mess and don't clean it up, I can be cruelly inconsiderate sometimes, and the list goes on.

Of course, I don't do these things on purpose. Rather, I usually forget these social dos and don'ts or even fail to notice. This reflects badly on my EQ rating. I really should treat my friends better, and I promise to try very hard to change all these bad habits in myself towards my TRUE friends to become a better friend to them.

If any of you guys are readling this, I'm sorry for all the things that I've done which you guys didn't like so much. Really sorry from the bottom of my heart. Please forgive this ungrateful douche for not treating you like I should.

*no particular event happened. Just something I came to notice.

Cheers!