So earlier today we went to listen to a talk about one of the daughters of the Prophet SAW, Saidatina Fatimah RA, and I won't relay here what was said because saya tak bertauliah, but I would like to share one thing.
Towards the end of the talk, the speaker shared how Saidatina Fatimah RA felt when her father SAW passed away. She was said to have said something to the effect of (and I'm paraphrasing, so please don't take my word for it) "If the darkness that descended upon me were to descend upon the daylight, surely there would no longer be any light during the day." She was also said to have asked the people who lowered Rasulullah SAW into his grave thus, "How was it? To be able to see my father's face for the last time before it got covered in dirt?"
I broke down and cried for a good five minutes. If there's anything that can get tears streaming out of my eyes in two seconds or less, it's a story about the Prophet's SAW death.
I remember reading about it in a book of Sirah written by Tariq Ramadhan. I read that book twice. I cried just as hard both times I reached the part where Rasulullah SAW passed away.
How odd it is to miss someone you've never met before this much.