Sunday, December 19, 2010

You Will Be Missed

"Kesat air mata. Ku mahu kau senyum seperti bunga menguntum," Kasihan by Hujan.

Earlier today, while I was out with my family at Padang Besar and trying to have the most fun a guy with no money and a camera could have at a place like that, I received a text message from a friend.

"Sahabat kita, A, telah meninggal dunia pagi tadi kerana asma.. Al-Fatihah buat Allahyarham.."

My first reaction was, "A? Innalillaahi wainnaailaihi raaji'uun (From Allah we came and to Allah we will go back to)", and proceeded to recite the al-Fatihah, while having A's face in mind. But that was left at that and then I went on minding my own business.

Then I received the same text from another friend of mine. Then another. Then another. I read them and did nothing but put my phone back into my pocket. The place was really crowded, so I could hardly hear myself think. Thus, I just went with the current of people minding their own business, looking for stuff to buy.

Several moments after the last text message, another friend called me. A was from Terengganu. This friend, S, is from Terengganu. He asked if I knew, and I said I did. He said he was visiting the family of the deceased person in question, I just nodded and asked him a few questions about some details, then ended our conversation.

After hanging up, I imagined S going to see A's body, and how he would react. My eyes immediately welled up and I had to stop in my tracks to wipe away the sudden tears. They came uninvited, unexpected, but, at the end of the day, totally welcome. I'm sure the people who were walking right behind me were thankful that they didn't run into me, and while passing me gave me the stink eye, but at that moment, the whole world didn't matter to me. What mattered was the realisation that A, a senior, a College-mate, a block-mate, a Student Council-mate, a FRIEND, was no longer with us. I couldn't smile for the rest of the day.
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You see, what finally got to me was the suddenness of it all. He started his day, I imagine, not much differently from all of us. We woke up, as he must have, had our breakfast, like he would have, and went on with our day without ever thinking that anything would happen to us, until they happen to us. And when they happen to us, we might not fully realise that, hey, that thing that happened to us, THAT'S FATE. And that was was what happened to my friend, A. Fate.

You can't run away from fate. If fate says that you'll bite your lip today, you WILL bit your lip today. Even if that's the last thing on your mind, even if that's the least favourite thing that could happen to you and you would do anything in your power to stop it from happening, you WILL bite your lip. And I have. Same goes with death. You die when you die. No questions asked. No age limit required. It doesn't matter if you're 71 or 17, you'll die when you die.

The question is, will you be ready when it's your time to go?

My friends,
A was 22 years old. Twenty-two. Pretty young in anybody's book. He hadn't even started working yet. He hadn't even finished his studies. He had just finished his 6th semester in the Teacher's Training Institute for crying out loud, and 2010 was a very good year for him. He had just finished a whole term as the Student Council Treasurer, part of the Student Council team dubbed "the best we've had in years" by a lot of people. Nobody in their right mind would say that it would be the end of the road for our dear A. Alas, he was to go, and nothing could stop it from happening.

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The question is, will you be ready when it's your time to go?

In my memory, A was one of the nicest guys you could ever meet. He always greeted you with a smile, even if you didn't always smile back. He was a smart-looking, soft-spoken, dedicated and overall good guy. I don't think anyone would have anything bad to say about this friend of ours. Even yours truly, who didn't get the chance to really get close to him, knew enough about him to be able to trust him with anything. I was able to observe him from Student Council meetings and jobs, from trips to the Surau (he frequented it way more than I did), from the field (he always had these cool Adidas shirts on), from the Amra block (he was always smiling and getting other people to join him smiling), from passing through the Student Hall (that was his study spot for the exam period), and others. And earlier today, he was to be no more.

The question is, will you be ready when it's your time to go?

Will I be ready when it's MY time to go?


Fatin Afiqah Ismail said...

Allah knows best...

grace said...

You know, life is indeed short...Our campus really loses a handsome+ good+ dedicated man...After i rectify who is him in facebook, is like, i'd a big shocked! that i ever had i in my entire life, i just cannot imagine that he has gone, my heart weeped and tears dropped, all of what i can think of is only the word "appreciate".We must learn to appreciate what we have for now and from now on, started to appreciate, appreciate our frens, lecturers, college's faciliities, so on and so forth. We cant predict what will happens the next moment , so we should be thankful that we still can breath now.May A R.I.P! I RESPECT U from the bottom of my heart! miss u!

wOrLdOfsEcReTwHisPer said...

walaupun knal A gitu2 je..
kt pdang, lepak skali ngn
chan kat kafe, penah ckap skali 2..
tp dpat rasa gak pmrgiannya..
apatah lagi yg rapat dan penah bertugas bersama2..

pencari sejati said...

2 kematian dlm 1 hari aku kene hadapi. seyes sgt susah. huhu.
pape pun, kite yg masih hidup, kene teruskn hidup dan SENTIASA BERSEDIA.

mengejar akhirat adalah tujuan utama hidup dan sebab kita dijadikan di muka bumi ini.

al-fatihah untuk arwah.

anak pak man said...

Fatin Afiqah,
Yes, He does, and it escapes our limited understanding, but trust in Him we must.. SubhanAllah..

Yeah, we should always appreciate the people around us and be good to everyone.. We never know when we might be the ones to go.. So we should always, always be thankful to be given another day to make the people around us happy.. May he rest in peace..

Al-fatihah.. Moga arwah dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dalam kalangan org yg beriman..

Betul tu, kita perlu sentiasa bersedia utk segala kemungkinan.. Al-Fatihah..

Jo said...

truly shocked when i found out the news..though i only i got 2 know him during my sbe, he was a good guy..may he rest in peace..
And indeed, most things in life r unexpected..

anak pak man said...

Yeah, may he rest in peace..

Anonymous said...

this is sad. and a very, very good reminder. we should all become better everyday. we should all ask ourselves that very question everyday, that if Allah was to call us back right now, will we be ready? we should really, really do our best. thanks, anak pak man for sharing this. this is very good.

i feel for you.

p/s: i've linked to you, btw.

anak pak man said...

teacher max,
Yes we should, yes we should..
Thank you for reading teacher max.. I appreciate it.. And thanks for chaining me up! That sounds weird, but I don't care! :)

AAINA said...

al-fatihah untuk A.

norhidayah abd halim said...

u was born in can in 2010 ur age is 22? so now u are 23? can that be..